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[Apr. 25th, 2007|12:15 pm] |
so basically, my life stinks right now.. ha what a suprise.. :(
uh, yeah.. tonight shall be interesting... we will see..
at least i have my friends to get me through.. AMEN!! woohoo!! i love you guys! |
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[Apr. 16th, 2007|11:31 pm] |
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[Apr. 16th, 2007|11:03 am] |
so, everything is back to normal! thank GOD!!
God is so awesome, you just have to put your trust in him and he will work everything out!!!
woooohooo!!
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[Apr. 12th, 2007|08:14 pm] |
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| A beautiful life with so much to give, |
[Mar. 23rd, 2007|12:43 pm] |
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The image of God underneath your skin.
The BEAUTY of God underneath your skin.
[i can't stand it, you pretend you care, and then you go and do idiotic stuff to prove me wrong, or maybe it is just my girlish mind who wanted to believe that it was all going to be. but then it wasn't..
OR MAYBE..
it will, just not now..
just to let you know, i'm not going to talk to you, for a bit. this relationship expert once said..(who was a guy, haha) "ignore them a little" sooooo, how does that sound? pretty good idea to me? i really don't know, maybe i'll figure it out.. eventually??]
okay, new subject bc/ everyone who read that probably had NO clue what i was talking about. sorry..
wow, right now i am like the most blehhhhh person in the world. GREAT! what to do, what to do?
i have to be the bigger person in this situation, and i hate it how she's like, "let's just put it all on them,and i'll pretend like i don't know why she SOOO angry." kind of sad huh? and the thing is, i don't even want to do anything about it! that's the point that it has gotten to.. i mean yes, i am still here to pray her up, but any attachment other than that.. i'm gone.
who i turned into, wow, i didn't like that person at all. how could i have let myself go so far and not even care? now i def. care! but.. "cause we're all guilty of the same things, we think the thoughts whether or not we see them through,and I know that I have been forgiven, and I just hope you can forgive me too." i'm sick of people judging me, and just to let you know, i'm not judging you or anyone else. i am in NO place to do that. sorry, i can admit it when i'm wrong. it's okay, you can too! you'll be alright. =)
man, i haven't updated in such a long time, this is probably the longest one i've ever written.. and still i haven't gotten all my feelings out, i feel so angry, but i'm so ready to let it go.. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! i don't know what to do, geez..
"On the outside all we see is clay
That hides the perfect light
But no one really knows the pain inside
I understand how much it hurts
To be the one who’s never seen
The missing pages in a magazine
No one knows you anymore
You’re lost inside the walls you’ve built
No one knows you anymore
A prison deep within your soul
There is One who sees it all
He’ll give you life you’ve never dreamed
He can see the pain underneath your skin
It’s hard to see you fading
Nothing that I do can bring you back
I pray to God that you don’t fade away
Your addiction is a symptom of a lost and dying soul
Without Jesus there’s no hope at all
There’s so much more this is not the end
It’s all in your hands don’t throw it away
A beautiful life with so much to give
The image of God underneath your skin
The beauty of God underneath your skin"
hmm.. God will help me! |
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| Everybody want's to be loved.. |
[Feb. 10th, 2007|11:51 pm] |
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wow, so i never get on here.. but the past week/week and a half has been absoultely amazing though.. God has seriously proven Himself over and over to me. these past few days, they have been totally awesome! and i thank Him every day for His grace!
i took the act today.. i don't think i did very well.. sadly..
i've been with brittany and anna NONSTOP which isn't a bad thing.. it's very entertaining actually..
i've gotten VERY close with my sister.. PRAISE GOD!
and everyone just needs to be praying about me and graduating.. bc/ everything is falling apart now.. ha what fun! =(
i went to huey's with brittany, anna, candace, billy, and my sister tonight. it was really nice to see candace again. i haven't seen her in forever!
that's about it.
what an update... =)
it's late and i got up early.. i'm about dead.. goodnight!!!!
1 Timothy 4:12
love,Caitlin |
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| wowowww.. an update |
[Dec. 18th, 2006|10:57 am] |
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so, I never seem to update this thing anymore but I felt like I should, ha..
so heres what has happened in the last couple weeks.
God has once again proved Himself to me, in amazinggg wonders! Enough said.
I got two of the four wisdom teeth removed on friday, dec. 8th, the other two with be taken out either in january OR febuary.
I'm working 21.75 hours this week, I will not be able to get anyone Christmas presents until after Christmas, which I feel entirely horrible about, forgive me, okay.
and Christmas is in 7 days.. wow!
remember the reason for the season though, He is truely amazing!
I love you all, Hobby |
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| So it's been a while, |
[Nov. 24th, 2006|06:38 pm] |
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A lot of things have happened, a lot of things have changed.
I no longer have to wear glasses/contacts, anything of that matter.
I got a job at Kroger, it's going alright
Thanksgiving was yesterday, which means, Christmas is on it's way =]
She was great, I only met her once but she was one of those people who left an impact. I met her 3 wks ago actually, I went up to Bolton to pass out fliers for Fall-Rush with Brittany and Anna. I just remember so distinctly us standing around her desk just talking. She was a great. And I really don't understand how anyone could do this, to anybody.
R.I.P Mrs.Scott
-Hobby |
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| well.well |
[Sep. 19th, 2006|09:46 am] |
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it has been quite a while since i last updated this thing, a lot of things have happened, and a lot of things have changed. i have a job now, i'm in the process of getting a car, and i like him, i like him a lot! haha.. no one really knows who 'him' is and it shall remain that way, but i know him, and he is just amazing. anyways, i now work at TCBY, wolfchase.. you should def. visit me, it gets boring.. umm.. i haven't really been on the internet bc/ it is messed up at my house, at the moment, but it should be fixed soo.. i don't really have much else to say, bc/ i really don't have time.. i'm at my mom's friends and we are leaving now, i promise next chance i get to update, i love you guys.. keep God first, hobby 2nd =]]
-HOBBY |
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[Mar. 24th, 2006|04:14 pm] |
hello all, it's been a while eh? not alot has happened.. but alot has happened at the same time.. it's really confusing.. =/ |
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[Mar. 20th, 2006|06:50 pm] |
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Will they know how much I loved them..
^ Bwhaha I'm sort of on a Garth Brooks kick.. I'M SORRY
Today was wierd day #2.. I'm thinking this is a record. But, school resumed today.. I hate school. =[ |
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| Sometimes Late At Night.. |
[Mar. 19th, 2006|09:58 pm] |
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Goodness, I spent the entire day.. well 11:30-5:00 at my mom's work, went to church which was incredible, and now I'm home.. I took a reallllly long shower and listened to Hillsong. =]
Current Thought: I really like someone and I don't know what to do. =[
peace/love, Hobby |
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| Mama Was A Looker |
[Mar. 18th, 2006|09:09 pm] |
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Well, today was good. I babysat a 2month old and a 3yr old. Cute kids really, but so annoying! Crying constantly, but what did I expect? Ha. It was chill though. I love the family. So, this is going to be a really short post. Basically saying, so many things are going on, I'm suprised I haven't gone insane yet.. but I'm oh so close. Pray for me. Thanks. peace/love, Hobby |
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| Many Subjects.. This is Going to Be one LONG blog |
[Mar. 17th, 2006|09:37 pm] |
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Yes..I have actually found my life the past couple of days.. haha thank God I haven't been home. So many things have happened.. Wow, God is soo amazing! It all started on Wend. night. I actually ran across Hwy 14.. haha how exciting =] okay that's really not important. But Pastor Jason gave the most AMAZING message, and God was speaking to me the WHOLE time.. it was quite the feeling. He preached from Romans 5:1 [The Message Translation- "By entering through faith into what God has always wanted to do for us - set us right with Him, make us fit for Him - we have it all together with God because of our Master Jesus. And that's not all. We throw open our doors to God and discover at the same moment that He has already thrown open His door to us."] WOW, How amazing? PJ also used the analogy of a tempered sword. How the maker will stick the sword into extremely hot lava, until it looks like it is going to break in half, and then he pulls it out and immediately puts it into ice cold water.. takes it out, and beats it.. and repeats this process several times. The analogy is, God tests us [lava]. He allows things to happen to us and when we think we are about to give up [breaking point] He pulls us out and sticks us in the water, He then beats us to make us stronger, and it's not like He leaves us hanging by ourselves either, He is with us every single step.. right there beside us! PJ also came to an amazing point, everyone thinks that Jesus led this perfect life [in which He did], but they think He lived it without problems, and people ask themselves how can He relate to us, it's not like He's had problems..right? WRONG, ["Jesus had problems. Three I can think of, 2 in His hands and 1 in His feet." -Pastor Jason] Suffering produces perserverance. If I'm not making any since with this, it's probably bc/ I'm not really trying, I'm just typing.. =] But yeah, so Wend. night Bailey spent the night, we stayed up until 3AM and had to wake up at 8AM let's say we were TIRED! But we went to the Collierville Mall on Thurs. with my mom,sister,and brother. THAT MALL IS GORGEOUS the stores are soo much bigger! We ate at Cheeseburger Cheesburger, which was really good but expensive. Bailey went in with $20 came out with $3.. we still don't know how that happened.. haha bc/ her bill was only $13 =] So then we went into Victoria's Secret and got our make-up done.. haha good times. Left there and went to church for Bailey's skit practice.. I got to be Bozo the dog, bc/ Mary wasn't there.. I papercutted my lip with the Oreo package and Bible.. quite the experience. Kellie dropped by for a couple minutes, glad to see her.. she is amazing. Then we went to Blockbuster and rented 'The Others' and 'Supersize Me'. [Both movies are equally strange..] Then back to Baileys. The brilliant idea of the day was 'Let's ride bikes' HA well we did, I haven't ridden a bike since I fell off one and had to have surgery, but like the bike I got was soo much bigger than me, but I managed to get on it and we rode around for a while, came back and watched 'Raising Helen' which is a VERY good movie and I do recommend it. And after that we watched 'The Others', which is the WIERDEST movie I have ever seen. Then some of 'Supersize Me'. Got tired, fell asleep. Then today went to the mall [where I saw Alyssa, and talked to Jarred on her phone haha] and Barnes&Noble [most amazing store in the world] Read the coolest book ever! called 'God Blogs', it's like God's livejournal/myspace, sooo cool =] I found a quote in it, "Reflections happen best when you are standing near to that which you want to reflect. [that which you were made to reflect]" HOW AMAZING! Then went to the eyedoctor, Subway, and Hollidays. Then $2 theatre and saw 'Last Holiday' also a great movie =] haha alright I think I'm done now.. hmm.. OH! I was supposed to go to the Relient K & Rocket Summer concert tonight, but that didn't happen so I'm sad, but it's all good. So yeah, Happy St. Patricks Day. And I told you this was going to be REALLY REALLY long =] peace/love, Hobby |
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[Mar. 15th, 2006|11:07 am] |
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Okay, so I'm really tired right now, but I had to get up. My mom has this thing where you can't sleep past 9:00 AM.. so if she lets me sleep till 10:00 that's amazing.. haha [I slept till 10:30 bc/ the madre wasn't here..GO ME =]
So I was thinking about alot last night, as I was talking to Brittany. Like she opened my mind to alot of stuff, I don't think she even meant to.. she is soo awesome.. and we have been talking alot since Sunday, which is good also bc/ I've had nothing else to do.. =[
Sometimes I wonder.. if anyone out there really knows how I feel.. like on the inside? Are they feeling the same feelings? Does anyone even care for that matter? I talked to Kellie yesterday about the way my family is treating me, how I'm getting a job soon [PRAISE GOD!]. The things I was telling her needed to come out.. and I soon felt very re-energized.. I know i need to get into my Word more, bc/ that's what I'm lacking.. and I know God can do all things, so I continue to pray each day that He will deliver me from this. I just want to get away. I want to go back to Ohio or something. Where I know, there is noone there that can hurt me.. at least for a couple weeks. ?? What I mean by "noone there to hurt me", I mean emotionally & mentally. After a while the things my brothers say to me takes a toll on ALL of my relationships.. I wonder "Why am I always picked as a last resort?" I always sike myself out before I know the actually facts.. [Is this making ANY since??] I just feel left out alot.. and maybe it's me making myself feel that way, I'm not sure.
WOW, that helped alot.. I think I'm going to like this livejournal thing =]
xHOBBY |
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[Mar. 14th, 2006|11:15 pm] |
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So not to much has happened in "the life of me.." ; Masters Commission left yesterday for Ireland.. they got there safely, praise God.. please pray for their continued safety. Spring Break has been hella boring.. I haven't left the house ONCE since Sunday.. which is rather depressing.. for me at least.. and that is about it.. I'll probably start getting more into this when things actually start happening.. stuff that is worth reading.. but for now this is good-bye x HOBBY
p.s. brittany rocks. <3 |
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